About
I am a little restless ball of chaos.
This is my senior year’s second semester in college. I am focusing on writing a senior thesis. There is an announcement I’m waiting for in mid-March, after which point I will deal with my plan after college.
(Me, an anonymous egg who is a little restless ball of living Chaos)
(*Eris: Goddess of Chaos and Strife. What an incarnation herself.
Also the divinely chosen one to bring destruction darkness her kingdom to this forever alien land.
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1. Dissolving of large questions
I have found, over the course of half a year and then the winter break, that the large metaphysical questions about my life to dissolve away. #What’sthemeaningofmylife24h/day. They used to keep me, and now I feel like I’m free.
It’s like the feeling that I know exactly who I am.
2. Learning to be organized
I just realized that I probably have ADHD, and for the first time I am learning what it means to be organized. For the first time in my life I feel somewhat…put together and things managed.
I am practicing building self-discipline, which I consider to be like getting the ball rolling in its path in a frizzy world.
I employed 10+ planning apps, several notebooks, a bunch of skills, and cleaned up my room. I sought different life coaches. I think I got this.
3. Sovereignty
I’ve come to consider myself a sovereign. More accurately, a crown prince who is going to recover her kingdom.
Path
I want to go down a different academic path.
Right now on the short-time is my last work in college.
(This is me the ball on the path. Don’t ask me what path, or where it comes from.) [What is speakable is not the way anyways.]
(This picture represents my habit of spilling/splashing everything of myself to strangers online.)
this website
I want to be able to blog with anonymity.
I’ve always found journaling really helpful, and I’m aided by a sense of audience; maybe some performance issue. But some past channels like social media got cancelled because I became acquainted with people I know in real life, and other channels like past habit of writing to and sharing with my advisor is no longer viable since she wants us to form good working habit QvQ. (I sometimes slide to a multi-person pronoun when I’m murmuring by myself.)
*I purchased this website for 3 years.
Where else I plan to use to spill my digital trash?
English: I just found Substack
for Chinese writing: DouBan and WomenOversea(sharing)
What is the construction plan for this site?
I might develop an academic one. But right now I want to use it completely for venting purpose; so it should be separated from an academic one.
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